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[bluescreenwhitedragon]

"This is Intensity. Leave a message."

[[ ooc: Inbox 1 - because Imeeji gotta Imeeji

Day 259: Cell phone background changed (drawing by Kohime) ]]

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[nohalation]

...

[scooches a little closer]

[bluescreenwhitedragon]

[Wraps an arm around her shoulder]

Why are you sad?

[nohalation]

...

[leans into that easily for once]

Dawn is here.

1/5

[bluescreenwhitedragon]

[Dawn. That sounds like the name of someone he should---]

[bluescreenwhitedragon]

[




Oh.]

[bluescreenwhitedragon]

[Looks over at Angel.

OH!]

[bluescreenwhitedragon]

[A quick flash of "Does Intensity have to commit a murder?"

(One that Angel can never find out about.)]

[bluescreenwhitedragon]

[But blink and it's gone as he pulls Angel just that much closer to his side.]

Is he already giving you trouble?

[nohalation]

No. He says he does not remember anything, and he did not even attempt to hurt me.

Somehow, I do not believe him. Maybe he is telling the truth. But once I looked into his eyes, I did not feel like I was looking into the eyes of a stranger.

I cannot understand why he would just pretend though. I know he hates me more than anything, I do not think he'd be able to control that sort of anger. But in case it was true that he did not remember, I told him I would just leave him alone.

[bluescreenwhitedragon]

Even if he doesn't remember now doesn't mean that he'll never remember. He doesn't seem like the type of person to be able to bury the past.

[Like some other half-angel he knows]

[nohalation]

[excuse m]

...I don't think so either. That's why I don't want to try and do anything until he does remember. It would feel like I was lying to him, otherwise.

[bluescreenwhitedragon]

How does that even work?

[nohalation]

Ummm, say there is someone you hated, but you forgot everything that person did to you. You end up being very friendly to them. That person then tries to become friends, knowing very well that you would be enemies again when they remember everything.

Once you remember every thing, would you not feel like you were lied to? Or that you were being taken advantage of while your memories were gone? Of course it would be easier to become friends if you can't remember the terrible things they did to you.

[bluescreenwhitedragon]

If his personality is so wishy-washy that losing his memories is enough to change it, he shouldn't be allowed to keep it in the first place.

[nohalation]

But I started with nothing to myself.

[bluescreenwhitedragon]

And are you really that different from Dusk?

[nohalation]

Yes.

[bluescreenwhitedragon]

Explain.

[nohalation]

When we play games, I try to protect Future is Now. I would have used to decide "No matter what, do not kill anyone."

I am honest with you, and I am honest with Sho. I was never honest with myself before.

I try to look face on and move forward even if I want to ignore them instead. I used to ignore everything about my family and pretend they did not exist.

I have things that I like for myself, and not because I am an idol or because I am a ruler. I love sheep because it is something I like.

...

I have considered thinking about what I want for my own future. I would used to only think about the present.

[bluescreenwhitedragon]

And you think Dusk could have never gotten to those things on her current path?

[nohalation]

...I don't know. You did not exist in "Dusk's" life so it is hard to say.

[bluescreenwhitedragon]

Then let me rephrase your initial statement.

Do you want to leave Dawn alone so he has the potential to become someone he wasn't before?

[nohalation]

...

...

...

If he could focus on someone else. If he could find friends somewhere else. If he could realize he is not as alone as he thinks he is and could change from that... I would be happy.

[bluescreenwhitedragon]

That face looks the opposite of happy.

[nohalation]

...

I just wish he didn’t hate me. It feels so lonely.