bluescreenwhitedragon

Mmm.

For the near future, I have someone I must tend to . . .

For the far future, I have the goal I have always had.

But, for here - in this foreseeable future, in this world . . . beyond tending to that person . . .

[ quieter ]

To be honest, I'm at a loss.

Good. Your end game shouldn't change.

[Even if he still thinks it's fucking stupid]

And that should guide your hand for your intermediary goals.

Will this person help support your end goal? If so, prioritize them.

Who are the people -- like Whisky -- challenging you and your beliefs. Challenge them back. Decide your own future yourself.

And then figure out what's most important to you. Staying here and doing what you can or fast-tracking your own graduation so you can get on with the rest of your eternity.

Between staying and going, that much is already clear, I'm sure?

After all, I want to support you and C-dono.

Yes. Of course.

[A bit of a longer pause before:]

Did I mention I remembered more about my servant from back home?

Mm. . . ?

You didn't.

[ said, as a prompt for him to go on ]

The first time we met face to face, she disobeyed me and left me at the mercy of my opponent.

The last memory I have of her, she disobeyed me again. But this time to save my life.

Do you think you could ever be that kind of Servant? One who knows when to step in and even more importantly, when to stay back.

. . . Since we had drawn our contract - no, even before then, I have watched you. For the sake of learning what your character is, and therefore, where your will lies.

[ with a pause, as he looks up to him ]

Then, I should learn the distinction between whether I should be a Servant that can independently further your goals, even if it might be in defiance to the orders you give - or whether I should be a Servant that prioritizes your wellbeing, while also carrying the respect to stay my hand when you fight your own battles.

For as long as I have been your Servant, I have stayed my hand in public, for the purposes of creating that villainous mask. Though I have felt strongly the urge to involve myself, I had yet to do so, this being among the chief reasons as to why. However, with such removed, there is no need to hide that any longer.

[ with a hum, thoughtful for a moment ]

What you desire is a person, a self-sufficient tool - a companion, perhaps. One who would, honestly, speak with you - one who would, honestly, disagree with you. With even just that much, it's plain to see that - between the two . . .

. . . It's up to my best judgment, isn't it? In such situations, when it is appropriate to be a Servant that respects or a Servant that protects, a Servant who would further your goals or a Servant who would criticize your methods.

Am I wrong?

[He looks positively pleased with that answer]

I'll forgive the tool comment since you hit all the other points. But yes. If I wanted a yes man, I could build one functional enough out of scrap material if I put in the effort. And if I wanted someone who would run off and do whatever the fuck they wanted -- well, isn't that what most people are doing? Determining their own priorities and to hell with the bigger picture.

I'm looking for someone who shares my vision but who also independent enough to determine the best way to achieve that. I want someone who won't back down and isn't afraid to speak up. I want someone whose hand I don't have to hold.

[And he pauses as well]

And in return - am I meeting your expectations as a Master?

I'm an not here to coddle you or tell you that you're doing a good job when you're not. I'm not here to manage your emotions. Or even to ensure that you're taking care of yourself. I leave that to Whisky and Dia and to whoever else you look to for emotional support.

I'm here to teach you how to reach your end goal, using this---

[He gestures to the world around him]

As your training guide. I'm here to teach you how to create the future that you want with your own hands. And here to challenge your pre-conceived notions. And when I really need you - and it won't be for something frivolous - I will call for you. And I trust you to come.

Is that acceptable?

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