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And that is him in his purest form, isn't it? The one you bemoan changing into something else. Something unworthy of being your enemy. Your rival.

So tell me.

Is this new version of him "all evil"? Will you be able to destroy him?

. . . Let's correct this first. He could not be anyone with a personality without the template to host it. That unerring evil, taking shape of that boy - that would be the form he held from the very beginning of this city. But before, it was perhaps . . .

Seventy-five percent Angra Mainyu, with about ten percent of his template personality.

[ drawing the pieces of percentages on the table with his finger ]

Fifteen percent, therefore, is unaccounted for - that is the adolescent being known as "D☆☆dl☆m☆n", an existence entirely unique to this place alone. An identity and personality that was formed from the experience of living.

[ with a circle to that imaginary piece ]

This is the aspect that "I" planned to cultivate, until he could live without being "All the World's Evil". He has the capability of stopping me every time without end, if this "Angra Mainyu" side persists - so this is what "my" battle is; "I" planned to encourage to grow, so that the "Angra Mainyu" aspect would slowly, steadily, dissolve into mist.

So that, eventually, he could no longer stand in "my" way.

. . . That would be . . . Well, it's what "I" planned to do - bemoaning it in and of itself . . . I really shouldn't complain. In any case, the person that I'm attached to - the one that I have come to love - is that meager fifteen percent of a person.

So it's fine. Whatever happens, that would be . . .

[ frowns ]

Well, it's irrelevant for now. Those feelings could be dealt with, if that were the situation - if it was a battle between these two aspects, the adolescent new life and the ageless evil, then that would be well within "my" calculations. But -

The present issue is the template personality.

As it stands here, in this city, he can't fulfill his purpose as "Avenger". Of course that was already the case - even without "my" meddling, he'd come to such a dilemma regardless. However.

It would be fine if it was just those two. "Angra Mainyu, Avenger, All the World's Evil" versus "D☆☆dl☆m☆n". If the template could remain as such - as a frame and nothing more - then it would be fine, but the frame is bleeding into the picture, and at an alarming rate, as well. Any time he takes a memory, it's a roulette of strengthening that host personality or rejuvenating that "Avenger" side of his. Moreover, things like -

. . . Things like, "I want to be reliable" and "I want someone to be able to trust me" - honest feelings like that . . . They can be attributed to the host personality. So that seventy five percent starts to dwindle, and that fifteen percent should grow - but it's being stifled by that ten percent that's growing rapidly, uncontrollably.

. . . And he, that person - I said it before, right? He's troublingly lacking in ideals. "Ideals" would be something he'd have to attribute to that template.

Even if it's something he can independently want, even if it's what "D☆☆dl☆m☆n" wants, it's hard for him to navigate those murky waters. And - that's enough. That man, who is easily discouraged, will find doubt in everything that he does - because he is still trying to be "Avenger", because that is who he always was - something antithetical to "Avenger", like wanting to be respectable to any degree, he'll see as a thread to that host personality. Even if it's not - even if it is his own, Avenger is -

[ WITH A SIGH ]

. . . Laughably weak, mentally speaking. Laughably weak, physically speaking too, but I and I alone am weaker than him, in this place. Haaah . . . Well, that's why I started it in this way in the first place, but.

In any case - "Will I be able to destroy him"?

[ with a cold expression, voice low and smooth and just as cold, ]

. . . Naturally, "I" can. I will. If he would stand in "my" way, then his fate is sealed -

Or rather, that's already happened. All "I" need to do is wait, and passively watch as he eats himself alive. To ensure that it is done thoroughly, all "I" need to do is be by his side and gently nudge him into doing good, little by little. And, with this new condition of his, something like that just got easier. Quietly, without struggling, he will die, and all "I" need to do is watch over him.

Edited (This distinction is important) 2019-10-28 18:20 (UTC)

[That's... that's so much to take in, Lucifel. Give Intensity a few seconds to absorb all that]

So he's also a triplet.

And in your efforts to destroy his "evil" self, you'd hope his amnesiac self would flourish. But in fact, what you thought was an insignificant "binding" -- template, you called it -- is gaining more and more prevalence.

And Lucifel, idol of Imeeji, would just rather happily settle down with his multiple love interests.

While Ruler - re-arranger of human identity and ideals - wants his a worthy rival that he can crush under his heel before he can fully enjoy his victory.

And neither parts of you give a shit about this template.

Am I understanding this correctly?

[ pausing, his gaze downcast - it's hard for him to articulate what he wants and it's easily shown on his face, ]

. . . Lucifel, idol of Imeeji, wants Avenger to be the rival that can stop Ruler.

Ruler wants nothing more than for Avenger to settle down quietly, and live a fulfilling and happy life - and thus, be rendered useless, incapable of standing in Ruler's way.

. . . It isn't as though that child is one to be discarded - however, that child already has his own life to live. The template personality is not the host body - rather, like the original that was used to make a mold used for mass production, that person exists separately, living elsewhere. So -

[ with a strained tone, ]

It isn't fair, that he should take over Avenger's life too. ... It's his own, so - regardless of my own . . . What Lucifel or Ruler want out of him, he should be allowed to exist, you know . . . ?

Have you talked about this to any of the timeshares?

You know we have many running around here. And my world appears to be fucking full of them.

Maybe they can provide you with some alternative option that you're not considering.

. . . Ahh, you mean - like Silence-san and Song-san?

[ honestly what is a timeshare ]

If it was a matter of something like Silence-san and Song-san's situation, then it might be easier to consider this. But - well . . .

[ hm ]

It isn't quite the same. For one, there aren't quite three "people", but rather, facets . . . You wouldn't call "Lucifel" and "Ruler" two people in one body, right? Though his situation is more difficult . . .

Erm . . . Do you recall - the house, and the inherited memories of the person that died?

[That's the thing about timeshares. They come in all flavors! So surely one of them would be relateable to Lucifel.

But that is neither here nor there, so---]

Ah yes.

The "ghosts".

[He does not sound particularly pleased by that term.]

. . . Did you experience it yourself? Taking in that memory . . . ?

I don't know what all the fuss is about. It shouldn't have been strong enough to overwrite you.

So why would you even humor it?

. . . Well -

[ swts ]

I just brought it up to illustrate my point better, but - uhm . . .

In his case, that's how it is. "Avenger" and "D☆☆dl☆m☆n" are like "Ruler" and "Lucifel", but he . . . In the first place, his own identity and ego is weak enough that the memories of the template personality are overwriting him. You couldn't really call that situation similar to Silence-san and Song-san . . .

Edited 2019-11-08 04:38 (UTC)

[Just raises an eyebrow]

And who's stronger in you?

Ruler?

... Or Lucifel?

. . .

For as long as you are my Master, "Ruler" is secondary to "Lucifel".

Is that by virtue of having a Master?

Or is your will stronger than Doodles?

[ sitting himself up straighter, fingers lacing together ]

. . . It is out of respect to the Master that I have.

Your path to toppling the pieces above us takes priority to my own dream as Ruler. Until that day comes that you sit on Hell's throne, that dream of mine has been shelved.

Ah, yes. Right.

And then I get the joy of dealing with "Ruler", don't I? After all. I made you a promise.

[ lightly, ]

It'll be troublesome, but I can't say I'm the least bit apologetic about it in advance ♪

I'm glad we agree.

After all, what kind of king of anything would I be if I can't stop one faithful Servant from sabotaging his own life?

One can be a king for all his life without ever being a master - though I digress.

[ with a tilt of his head ]

Well, in any case, I'm grateful. I'll dedicate everything to you, and then against you when that time comes.

Make sure you get a good hard look at my weak spots, "Ruler."

Because I'm definitely paying attention to yours.

Of course, Master.

[ . . . clearing his throat ]

In any case, does it make more sense, when it comes to Avenger? Intensity-sama is a person who never needed memories in the first place to have an ego, so maybe it's hard to understand, but that's what I mean when I say he's mentally weak . . .

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