I wasn't telling people that I planned to act against the producers when I had a chance, or that I was making preparations for various things, because that could tip the producers off, and my plans were based around the element of surprise! If I had access to important information about what was going on in this place, I wouldn't just keep it to myself! And if I told anyone, I would definitely tell the people important to me! I just didn't have any of that information!
[fumes quietly for a moment]
...Yes, I was upset. Because it was upsetting when I was turning gray, losing all my memories, and terrified! I had no idea what was going on, no recourse to look to, and no idea what I could possibly do. And it was more upsetting to know that all my most important people did have those things, and left me in the dark.
I am upset at you too. Or, I was. And it does has to do with competence, because you clearly didn't trust me or think I could have done anything productive with the information, or you would have told me. Maybe that's my fault for not demonstrating I could, or that I was trustworthy. But that still upset me.
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[fumes quietly for a moment]
...Yes, I was upset. Because it was upsetting when I was turning gray, losing all my memories, and terrified! I had no idea what was going on, no recourse to look to, and no idea what I could possibly do. And it was more upsetting to know that all my most important people did have those things, and left me in the dark.
I am upset at you too. Or, I was. And it does has to do with competence, because you clearly didn't trust me or think I could have done anything productive with the information, or you would have told me. Maybe that's my fault for not demonstrating I could, or that I was trustworthy. But that still upset me.